Dr. Dawn Dalili
A PRIVATE PODCAST
Explorations
of Aliveness
Most experts figure it out privately and share only the curated pieces.
This isn't that.
I record this from parking lots and my morning bed and in the middle of any realization I can't let pass. I publish when the channel is open. This is what it actually looks like.
Not a show.
A practice.
My father passed in 2022. In the year that followed, I realized I had spent much of my life living for the approval of others - so ingrained that I had never fully asked: who am I? or what do I want?
I started Explorations in Aliveness because something is clarified, distilled, made real in the speaking of it. I share it without knowing who listens or what value, if any, is received on the other side.
I am clear that I'm doing it for me. Which is exactly why it might matter to you.
WHAT YOU'LL FIND HERE
"Should is the antithesis of aliveness."
On the small daily acts of self-betrayal - and what it costs to live inside them.
"I am no longer willing to blame my joy for my disappointment."
On the ways we preemptively limit aliveness to avoid the crash of losing it.
"Whatever you have cut yourself off from - I assert is the source of greater aliveness."
On integration. On the parts of ourselves we've amputated and called it being responsible.
"Granting being to whatever is happening - without arguing with it, suppressing it, or limiting it."
On what it actually means to stop performing and start living.
THE PRACTICE AT THE CENTER
Am I a yes?
Am I a no?
When you're guided from inside yourself, something shifts. The posture changes. The breathing deepens. There's a leaning forward - a magnetism. Something pulling toward.
When you're looking outward - at what's expected, approved of, safe - something contracts. The space around the heart tightens. There's an aversion. An ick.
The podcast is a practice in learning the difference. Not as a concept. As a felt sense - in your own body, in your own life, right now.
For 40-something years, I didn't know I was being inauthentic. The habit of filtering my choices through expectation and approval was so ingrained - I didn't know the difference between who I am and what I thought I was supposed to be.
That's the unraveling. That's what I'm doing out loud here. You're welcome to bring your own.
Two most weeks. Sometimes one. Sometimes three.
I publish when the channel is open.
ACCESS
Explorations of Aliveness
PRIVATE PODCAST - FULL ARCHIVE ACCESS
This isn't content. It's access. To the unedited process of a physician doing her own work - and trusting that the truth of it might be useful to you.
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Let it crack you open.
